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There was a time when I felt like a fraud.
Some of you may know I am an advocate of self love and body love.🥰
But that was easy to do and talk about, then…
Because let’s be real…🤷♀️
By societal standards, I did have a pretty goddamn sexy body on the photos I posted (Mainly because I eat healthy) 😅🙊
So it’s actually quite easy to “love my body” and “feel good” and “feel sexy”
And I’ve talked about being my meanest critique, because DESPITE this healthy body size and proportion, I used to focus on everything that was wrong- my flaws. 😳
And there was always one thing I could find wrong, or not enough. 😤
😒I used to NOT see myself as beautiful, nor appreciated my body.
☹️ My ego constantly needed validation, and to be told that I look good/sexy/attractive.
To the point that I feel like my self worth and self esteem depended on these compliments. 💔
And even when I got it, I would instantly reject it 😫
Despite the TONS of compliments… I actually didn’t truly accept it- that I was beautiful, or that others see me as such. Yes it would feel good for a bit, but I instantly dismiss it🤔
Because I DID not feel that way, so I DID NOT believe what others say…😑
And I know I’m not the only one who felt this way.
One of the reasons for this is from the unrealistic societal standards of beauty that was glamorised by the media. 🤦♀️
Fortunately, with continued dedication to working on myself, and self-love practices
I have finally healed and unlearned majority of the sources of these mean inner critique of my ego.
And have finally fully accepted and loved my body, and appreciated how fuckin beautiful this body suit is
AND THEN THE TEST COMES.
With just 6 months to go before I turn 30, I notice I am actually starting to gain some weight 🙊
My body no longer looks like what it ‘was’.
At first I thought I was going to go back to my self loathing and was almost expecting that man inner critique to take over and beat my self esteem.
But you know what?? I CAN STILL SEE, SAY, AND FEEL HOW BEAUTIFUL AND HOW MUCH LOVE I AM GIVING AND RECEIVING FROM THIS BODY.
NOW I CAN TRULY SAY…. ALL BODY SIZE AND SHAPE IS TRULY UNIQUELY BEAUTIFUL.
And I love that this is not just showing up for myself…
Because I have stopped judging myself, I have stopped judging others.
I now truly see, appreciate and love the beautify of a human body, regardless of size, sex, shape, age, marks, etc. ❤️
AND IT FEELS SOOOOOO LIBERATING.
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Say it with me:
I LOVE MY BODY.
I APPRECIATE MY BODY.
I LOVE MY SELF.
I AM UNIQUE.
I AM BEAUTIFUL.
x Sarah S.
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*photos credit to the owners
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